(un)family

Posted: January 30, 2016 in Lyrics, Poem
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(un)family
completed on 01.29.16

sometimes blood isn’t thicker than water
the choice of obscurity over me
focusing on their pride
while i struggled to survive

the worst excuse that i could see
’cause this isn’t how a family should be
torn between anger and love
an emptiness i can’t get rid of

so i’ve swept away the stains
tried to wash away the pains
unearth the purpose for this life
to prevent living an empty dream

i’ve stumbled for so long
felt lost more than i’ve been found
an aftermath that doesn’t make sense
unclear who’s on my side of the fence

i need love to light the stars
so i can find my way back home
need you as my compass so i don’t roam
only change can slowly mend these scars

“crack underneath”

Posted: December 16, 2015 in Lyrics, Poem
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“crack underneath”
completed on 12.15.15

the sliver of the moon
trying to pierce the night
because it’s better to go out fighting
than be swallowed by the dark

the winding road underneath
dimly lit, covered in sleet
struggling to thaw, attempting to freeze
the change a couple degrees could make

so maybe this is karma
for stealing the sun once underneath
the wind once meant to fill his sail
oxygen too thin for the two of us
the death of everything around us

whether you’re clawing out a landslide
or feeling the ice crack underneath your weigh
the uncertainty is the only thing clear
fighting for composure versus everything you fear

the fog of ambiguity
too dense to see the way out
your fear of the unknown
the death of everything you’ve known

the weight of life’s expectations
pressing my face underwater
too suffocating to breathe
gasping for what’s underneath

so maybe this is karma
for pushing the tide against it’s own
and you hate yourself
for life granting a brand new day
don’t let yourself get in the way

“if i had you”

Posted: November 21, 2015 in Lyrics, Poem
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“If I Had You”
written on 12.10.13

it’s a lonely night
i feel the emptiness in my mind
a frigid night reminiscing of things that never aligned
an icy view of paths maligned

i see the could-have-beens
the worst headache of past regrets
i question the routes i took
i stop on your name in my address book

your smile flashes before my eyes
and lights up the darkest skies
i see all you have to offer
and how my life you’d alter

poetry sewing me to your soul
tying us together to make me whole
everything you are begs the best in me
your love making me feel so free

and we’ll grow old and grey
and that’s fine by me
’cause everything i see in you
is what helped me push through
life is so beautiful because of you…

“in vain”

Posted: November 17, 2015 in Lyrics, Poem
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“in vain”
written on 11.18.15

sunlight’s rays far too brief
the chill of winter smothering summer’s warmth
i’ve reached through the depths of your eyes
midnight melancholy masking the starlight

tears falling in vain
to wash away the pain
the sting of my call for help
falling on deaf ears
alone drenched in all my fears

the thrill of her skin’s touch
crushed by dark waves of discontent
embers dancing in the darkness thought to thrive
not expected to survive

love now viewed from a telescope
as foreign as video on the silver screen
it doesn’t help to dream
when things are exactly as they seem

desperate for sunshine
dreaming out windows overcast
the darkness of my situation
the lightning and the rain
pierced only by my ink pen

Star of Life_US

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“Universe”

Posted: November 16, 2014 in Photography
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“Rays”

Posted: November 16, 2014 in Uncategorized
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